My Self-Care Regimen Is Killing Me

On the Other Hand, What a Way to Go

Mary Pickford from the Silent Era, sitting collapsed on the floor.
Mary Pickford from the Silent Era, sitting collapsed on the floor.
Mary Pickford reconsiders her life choices.

Here’s what I’m doing in the mornings now.

I wake at 5:00 a.m. so that I …

Here’s my evening.

Try to leave work at a decent hour, then

Wiped out, yeah, but alive and getting more so.

Thing is, I am a little old for this shit. I still fall asleep on the sofa by about 9 p.m. most nights, just as I did before when I was conserving my energy. This doesn’t even count how tired I am by 10 am. Some days I feel like my day is over at noon.

Steve Rogers, Captain America, dirty and tired but happy.
Steve Rogers, Captain America, dirty and tired but happy.

I’m a 50-something bohemian with a mountain of debt and regrets. Can I dig out before it’s all over? I brake for poets.

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